there were secrets

woven

underneath her words.

you noticed them in her stutters

they made her tongue heavy

ate at her words

made them fragmented.

you heard them

in her silence

rustle

like leaves

in wayward wind.

you wondered

tracing her cracked lips

if they dried her out

made it hard to breath.

you saw them

past the warmth

of her eyes

a ghostly grey distance

that seemed sometimes

to blur her sight

make her unfocused

like the world

was less real

then her secrets.

Lost behind a face

that belonged to another

She used dance in golden flowers

her eyes so wide

the whole sky could fit into them

Lost with wishes I never made

and hopes of things I never wanted

She used dance under a silver moon

her hair so black

it was a part of the night

Lost in the arms of someone who loved her

and saw my face transform into hers

She used dance in the winter

her laugh so loud

it broke the clouds

Lost inside a family

that saw only her

when they looked at me

She used to dance in crowds

her figure so beautiful

the whole world stopped to stare

Lost with a sister

who drowned but never died

I used to sit in golden flowers

watching a face so similar that

sometimes I forgot

it wasn’t mine